daneeyo

Don’t wanna go back Lord
to the way I used to live
the way I used to live
I won’t go back Lord
to the way I used to be
before you rescue me..

I will not stop
til’ every tribe and nation
bows before You..
I will not stop
til’ they all see your glory
see your glory..

Lift up your eyes to see
The glory of the Lord is on the earth
Arise.. Arise.. Arise..

Your Fire Burns within me
Burn within me with your fire

Arise generation no longer forsaken
Arise, Arise, Arise

Whenever we sing this song at church, it never fails to bring me to tears. I’ve been out of church and my relationship with God isn’t so stable. Hearing this song come up on shuffle though brought back so much memories and questions in my head that I want answers of. Why is my life not aligned with God? Where did my passion in helping people go? Am I going to Heaven when I die? Are you mad at me when I’m sinning? I really miss the grace of God and the child-like faith that I had. I know I can always go back but it’s hard schedule-wise. I miss the friends I made in church that I don’t talk to, the relationships of a brother and sister, and having that positive vibe around me while I live out my life. I’m still listening to this song right now and yeah, the tears didn’t stop. Father God, I know I haven’t talked to you or noticed you in so long, but I hope you forgive me throughout this whole rebellious season I’m going through. I didn’t do this because I was mad at the world nor was it for attention. You know my heart, for real. I am still that child that loves you, but It just needs to click in my head. Thank you for the memories that were made in this crazy season. I also want this change, this change that I’ve been always asking for years now to happen and I know I must be patient with it. I miss you a whole lot. Yeah.